wow, can you believe it? its been exactly one year since ive been diagnosed with cancer. praise God for full healings! i remember it was just last year when i had a bloated tummy and had 20 extra pounds because of the fluids that were in my belly. who would have thought i would be diagnosed with cancer huh? it was around this time i asked my fellow church members to pray for me, thinking that i had major gas/ stomach pains. haha, oh man funny. and around 6:30AM on july 1, 2009, i couldnt take it any longer. i have severe abdomen pain and i called my dad to take me to the hospital. i did an ultrasound and detected a tumor in my ovaries. when i got the news, i remember him saying to me that everything was going to be okay. he gave me a box of tissues and i wept thinking, God, would you really take away my life? i still have alot more things i have to do. im not ready to leave. im too young…etc…i told my pastor and around 5 friends about the situation and i was scared about everything. i mean if you found out you had cancer, wouldnt you be in shock and have sadness, anger, bitterness, etc?
but looking back at everything, i praise God for that journey. He brought peace in my heart and i wholeheartedly trusted in Him, laying my life down at His feet. and although i knew i was going to survive, in the back of my mind, i was preparing to leave the world. You know, especially from this past year, i felt Gods love through the people in my life. Many people prayed for me, encouraged me, listened to me, hung out with me, kept me company, made me happy, and helped me to feel like nothing really happened. like i was never sick. ;]
God works in miraculous ways and im still in awe of Him. looking back, i still shed a few tears and i have a big smile on my face, because i know that during my hospital days was when i was relying on God the most and it was when all the people surrounding me encouraged me.
people come to me saying things like you encouraged me angie, your testimony really touched my heart, you still come out to church even when your sick, etc. but i think it was the people around me that touched my heart and encouraged me, because without the support, i think i would have had a mental breakdown, and i would have not been such a strong fighter.
man, it really has been one year. and as i am looking at the present, i tend to forget what God has done for me. i have become self absorbed and self reliant. in all honestly, its like i only cry out to God when im weak, when im incapable of doing things on my own strength, which is wrong of me. i forget that He saved my life. that He has given me a second chance to glorify His name. so that i could go out and share my testimony with other people because through me, i hope that people will see Gods love.
as i look to the future, im a bit worried. i shouldnt be because i trust in Him but….im afraid that i wont fulfill the duty He has placed in my life. of course time will tell and its up to me to make the right choices. so i will continue to lay down my life at His feet, trusting in Him everyday. not worrying and doubting anything because He is with me. ALWAYS.
PRAISE GOD FOR HEALING ME.
PRAISE GOD FOR THE PEOPLE AROUND ME WHO ENCOURAGE ME
PRAISE GOD BECAUSE HE LOVES ME
PRAISE GOD FOR EVERYTHING
PRAISE GOD THROUGH MY SUFFERINGS
PRAISE GOD THROUGH MY HARDSHIPS
PRAISE GOD WHEN I AM WEAK
PRAISE GOD BECAUSE HE LISTENS TO ME AND IS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME
pictures: hospital before/after surgery july 2009 @UCI medical center
chemo treatment polaroids: chemo- august -september 2009 @UCI chao cancer medical center
sorry about that 1 picture being blacked out. i took a picture of me with no hair and i dont want you guys to see me bald so :P
ENJOY. PRAISE GOD and i am so THANKFUL to be alive to fulfill His plan on earth! ;]
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